Today I cleaned (some) of my place for the first time in months. I can’t even guess how many it has been so long. This and many other reasons are reasons I never let anybody come over. My mom happened to peek in and see how bad it was and made a comment about it. […]

Needing Someone

Posted this on the wrong blog. 😐 Why is it so hard to ask for help? Why is it hard to ask for someone to come hold you while you’re feeling at your worst? Me? It makes me feel weak, stupid, childish. What if they reject me? What if they think I’m too needy and […]


I found something on the internet about how people would try to do other things instead of cutting. They have mentioned things like drawing where you would want to cut and snapping rubber bands on your skin… I feel like none of that shit would be helpful to me at all. Cutting didn’t even occur […]


I actually skipped my medicine a couple times this week. I was feeling pretty good so I guess I forgot. I thought I was doing pretty well… But you know how one thought gets in your head and then it throws you back into your hole? I was invited out but I avoided it because […]


I cried for three days and then something snapped. I woke up and I was back to feeling nothing, of course, besides mental pain. It felt like the sun had just started to peak out, but then the storms came in before I was able to even enjoy the warmth. That’s when I thought, if […]


Hate is nothing new to me especially when it comes to hating myself. Everyone has their moments when they dislike themselves for some reason, but with depression it’s there all the time. It’s like the tide. Sometimes it’s low, in the back of your mind and sometimes it’s high, at the forefront of your mind […]