Hello Again!

It has been quite a while! Lots of stuff has happened… most importantly my “new doctor” was horrible. He asked me the same questions every time and still couldn’t pronounce my name after the 4th visit (you think you would write a note?) which made me feel like he really didn’t care. He was always […]

New doc!(?)

I know I haven’t been on here in a while. Life was just… It’s not necessarily that I was busy. I was playing games online, sleeping all day, watching Netflix, and trying my hardest to motivate myself to clean and do dishes. I eventually got it done but it took way longer than I care […]


Lately I’ve been so exhausted again. Haven’t been like this in quite a while. I can sleep 14 hours and still wake up tired. I had about 10 hours of sleep last night, took 2 b complex this morning (for energy), and have been yawning all night. I had only been awake 8 hours when […]

The Disease

I’ve never felt right having this disease. I have a great life (not without its tragedies) so it feels like I have no reason to be depressed. Well as you know in the past month or so I lost my uncle, the person I thought was the one left me for someone else, and now […]

Numb forever?

I’m still feeling numb. I have barely cried for my uncle or over my breakup. I feel like I was feeling so much that I built a wall so I wouldn’t have to feel anything anymore. It must be my defense mechanism. Ever since I was little I would try my hardest to hold back […]


He’s been dead for over a week now. That crazy week and the service is finally over and I haven’t shed ample tears. Yes, I’ve cried, but every time I cried I used my numbness to reel it back in so I could be there for my family or because it wasn’t the time. I’m […]